Remember is a word I have a tough time… remembering.
I see the benefit of engaging in meditation to hold on to clarity for the day. For me, that looks like reading scriptures and then spending some time drifting in and out of thought and prayer. As an added stress relief, that also includes daily exercise where I am not distracted.
When I get going on this path, I feel great! I feel more in touch with my goals and do not feel out-of-control, even if everything is not figured out. And what do I go and do after a bout of this?!
Stop meditating.
I always pay the price. My brain gets more disorganized, my goals seem harder, and that clarity is lacking which ends up in fear.
A few days ago I realized I had entered this part of the cycle, once again. So I did what I have learned through meditation, which is to just adjust myself and make a better choice in that moment. So I have been once again engaging in the better practices for myself.
But then.
As I was sitting in the gym cafe, my usual patched together school/childcare plan, a man came up to me asking about my laptop case. (A heavily reinforced tank of a case to combat my children’s antics)
I love a good conversation and it turns out he works for an organization with the Small Business Administration that helps people make small businesses. He was adamant that they need me as a mentor in digital marketing, SEO and websites but that they could help mentor me more in the business creation end for myself.
Yet another example of how I am remembered by my God. What I am trying to build, I consider holy work. I want success so badly for the stability it will provide my children. I cannot communicate how desperately I want this to happen. It has led to me making some really tough tradeoffs, but so far, it’s working!
I am grateful.
