I used to think that yoga was not for me because my brain goes a mile a minute. I have learned, however, through the past couple years, that perhaps those of us who think this way need it the most. It gives me an opportunity for an hour of self-reflection while working my body. That is also why I love swimming. It is all encompassing and requires all of my focus.

This particular instructor is knowledgeable and kind. I love to listen to the words she has for us for the day. She asks a lot of questions for us to pose to ourselves for self-reflection. Today she posed the concept of coming to the mat to work, but then asking ourselves developing questions of where we are at. Why is this position a struggle, or too easy? Are we engaging all parts of ourselves?

The ultimate goal of these questions aren’t for the yoga class. It is for everyday. I understood better the cycle I am in right now. I have the fire to do the work required of me. It is tough to go to school online for such a technical degree, care for 3 small children who have had a lot of change in their lives, and create websites for small businesses in my free (ha!) time. I am throwing it down when it comes to work. I want this.

But every few weeks I find myself getting down about how many self-reflecting questions I am having of if I am pursing the right direction. And is this really going to work? Is the messiness of my house evidence that I am doing something wrong?

I am beginning to understand that the questions are GOOD! It is the judgement of myself with the questions that is creating the problem. I need to begin embracing the process of  having the fire to do the work, settling into that process, asking tough questions, doing some self-reflection, adjusting a bit, then getting back to work. My work will not be as effective in my life with my children, school, or my business unless I allow, without judgement, time for reflection. That reflection is going to create the best adjustments and therefore the best outcome.

It’s all a process.